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My confessions of 2005
Ps: Everything I am saying in here is true. =0
January- The year 2004 was a major wake-up call for me. My first relationship, my first time being dumpped and plenty of other new things. I hated 2004 but it all ended on December 31st :). New years was at my cuz's house and I called Ange haha and her and I promised that we'd never fall for STUPID guys. It didnt take me long so I did. Dan. It all started on January 5th that we finally started dating. It went well. January was just the start of misery.
February- February 5th was Snoball. Dan and I went together. It was great. (even though he can't dance) I had fun. Wasent the best dance ever. Or the best boyfriend ever. Then starting on Febuary 11th it was the best week of my short boy less life. I went on a carnival cruise. I had the best time, with 12 days out at sea in Mexico, Jamica, Miami and the Camen Islands. Gosh, the free pizza and Ice cream 24/7 and a buch of cute fellas ;) haha. I still talk to some of them. But they are all from differet states, and countries. I came back with a huge tan. haha.
March- Well remember when I said I fell for a stupid guy? Well I did, BIG time. Dan and I were okay. I mean there was NOTHING wrong with our relationship. Then he told me that he wanted to break up. I cried. Duh. He dumpped me because his best friend Ian hated me. wow. It was stupid. So I went on living my life normaly. Well, something good, well March was the month Mr. P heard me song for the first time. haha. March was also the month that I recived my first solo in choir. Or lets say in my high school years.
April- well April was a calm month for me. From learning our dances in choir, to Soccer try-outs. God, I hated soccer. It was really bad. The WHOLE team hated me. hah I didnt care. Soccer took up most of my life in this month, everyday we had practice 3:00- 5:30. It was HELL.
May- May was a slow month. Choir concerts, to band ones too. But for Marching band we all went to NY IT WAS A FUCKING 14 HOUR DRIVE! It was worth it. I want to live there. haha. I loved being with Amanda and Catherine too. The scubrats or w/e and the napkin eaters. haha. It was great. Jeff Kuhn Died on May 1st. It was hard for all of us to deal with it. I didn't know him that well, but even I miss him still. In this month I had a major crush on Jimmy but I didnt really like him anymore, so Dan and I got back together (the worst mistake ever).
June- yay I survived my first year of high school! I made it thru the crazy teachers with really good grades, My summer was long and lifeless. Dan and I broke up again. But hey I didn't even cry over it. It was really nothing to me. and I really didnt care that I was single. Dan and I were not ment to be together. There was just something missing. During the summer I really focused on my family and friends. I was very crafty and I became stronger. I ran a lot thru my neiborhood. and I lost over 30 pounds! I guess people thought I was skinny but I really wasent. When I got out of school I was 150 pounds. I'm not lieing. So I went down to 120. and I still wasent satisfied. So I swam and ran a lot and I ate better choises. I was going to change myself and make me a lot healthier.
July- At the begining of this month I went up-north for the 4th. and I met people up there. It was fun. I also started Driver's ED. how fun. Dom and I were very close. He became my Best friend. and I was his. I started to have feelings for him. but I wasent sure. we hung out a lot and we talked. and We desided to go to Homecoming together if we both didint have dates. But that didnt work out lol.
August- I got my permit, and I was driving a lot and such. I had a lazy begining of the month. Besides that matter Cara and I went to MSU and we stayed 3 nights there in the dorms. I was wonderful, It opened my eyes to my future and I loved meeting new people and everything. There was this one kid I met, his name was Noah. he liked me after the dances that were held there, and we slow danced a coupple times. Then I told him it just wouldnt work. he lived in the UP and yeah. Idk why I even danced with him. Then later in the month, There was band camp and I went to The Genesee County fair to show my animals like every August of my life. lol. I didn't do too well. But that doesent matter. Then Jimmy and I got back together. Gay, Gay, Gay. That was another mistake.
September- This month was full of suprises. Marching band was my life in this month. I spent every Wednesday out on the track. zzzzz hah. For marching band our show this year was Classic rock. "Highway Star" "Walk This Way" and "Come Sail Away". It rocked haha.
October- Homecoming was the first of October.I went with Jimmy, and Everyone looked GREAT. There was a lot of Drama, but what do you expect, its Fraser. =P. IN the middle of the month, I broke up with Jimmy. I didnt really like him that much anymore. There was something missing that I really wanted. I asked him back out, but I'm glad it didnt happen. As soon as he said no, I was fine I was happy he said no. I wanted something better. And Jimmy, If you are reading this I'm sorry haha nothing personal. Then Halloween was AWESOME. HAH I was a cowgirl and My and my cousions went trick-or-treating. That was my last time :(
November- On the third of November I was finally 16. YES! I had the best party, with the best of friends, and everything was awesome. haha. I got my I-pod photo. and that was all I wanted. I got my solo in Jingle bells in Choir. A lot of people were upset. But honestly they were all jealous. :) For thanksgiving I went up-north and mostly just thought about a lot of things.
December-wow. the BEST month of my life! I met this amazing boy named Justin Robert Cartwright. wow. So on the 13th of december he asked me out. I have never been more happier! He is the best thing that has ever happned to me. There is nothing missing. Like the other past two bfs. god Justin I love you so much. =D My christmas was great He got me a beautiful necklace, and besides that I got what I wanted, Justin.=)
SO i FOUND OUT THAT THRU ALL THE PAIN SOMETHING GREAT COMES ALONG. i GOT WHAT i ALWAYS WANTED :)
Whoever got their feelings hurt in the making of this. Then cry me a river, It's a new year =D
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